Hope

Hope. What is hope? Hope: to cherish a desire with anticipation. Whatever you want to call it but we all have it. Maybe not always but sometimes. We write in cards that we 'hope for the best' for the other when sometimes the message is intended for us. I have had many hopes throughout my life like all of you out there, and sometimes they have been crushed by a person or another. I have always found a way I  guess to get over it and keep going and hope for someting better tommorrow. I have hoped that my family could jst stop being 'two-faced' and just tell the truth. Obviously that hasn't happenned because I am here writing about it. I have learned the hard way the horrors of being hurt by ones family and I have learned that it is best just to communicate with them once in while so that you won't get attached and later have your feelings crushed and cry and regret(sometimes) every knowing that person or calling them 'family'. For a long time I have dealed with this and I have made another family at school, full of teachers and friends that I am not attached to but can count on for support. As humans I know that we have problems with attachment. I am not saying that it is a bad thing, but in some situations it can be. You just have to remember that you never know what is going to happen to you or the other person because you are not God and or a psychic (except for those who are). I think that my greatest of all hopes is that one day there will be no more war, enemies or races. Just one race: Humans. We will call eachother family, and eat together at the tabe. I know this sounds 'corny' or whatever but ever since I was little I have hoped for this, I wish we were all children because they do not know race, color, or enemy; they know friend. I wish that one day this will happen and when it does I will be very happy. I don't care if it takes us one hundred years, or one hundred years later, but one hundred years later I will be gone but I will know when it happens.I hope that this has given you a braoder understanding of hope and that you express you'rs too.

Random

Today (April 8,2010) has just been one of those days that I can't wait for it to be over. I feel anxious all of a sudden with a hint of uncomfortable. Sometimes I don't get why we have such emotions, sometimes they are so powerful that you may want to weep or just leave the place where you are. For me I think that the biggest ones are sadness, anxious and uncomfortable. Usually I have no idea where it came from and I don't know how to get rid of it. I try to do what Morrie, Tuesdays with Morrie, did which was t recognize it first, then let it dwell a little and then let it go, but for me it isn't that easy to do. I hate how we have to deal with these profound things and I wish that when I felt a certain way I could just basically shrug it off but I can't.




On a lighter note, I guess, in my psychology class we talked about stranger anxiety. I don't know what it has to do with this topic I am writing about but I just felt like sharing it. according to the Johari window I should be sharing everything with people I know, but I don't know you guys but I feel ok doing it so there.:-) as I have said before I have never really blogged before, in other words I don't know what bogging is all about, but what I seem to have understood is that you just write about random things, so I guess that is what I am basically doing with mine.

Prom is one of those things that I have seen is a really big thing where I live, especially with the girls, I don't know about the boys because imp a girl. Anyways I am a junior and I have decided that I will be going to this prom, even though it is for the seniors, so I went and got a dress and today I found out that my friend got the same one. That was my biggest fear, and I had told her a billion times about my dress and she still got the same one (but in shorter length). I don't want to make this a big deal and all but my mom will when she finds out.

So what has been going on with all these things that the stars do and people making it such a big deal out of it? I mean Tiger Woods for instance, he cheated so what; he is not the first man who has done it. I personally don't care what he doe, I mean it did bug me at first but what could I do? Nothing, that’s what. This doesn't change a thing about him to me, I mean I like him because he is the greatest golf player I have ever seen. And the president, all this stuff they are talking about him, like him going to schools. What the heck is wrong with that, I mean I would love for him to come to my high school, boy that would be great. News flash people he's actually trying to make the United States a better place. He is a very respectable man and I am soooooooooooooooo glad he is our president, please just stop this stuff and leave him and everyone else alone. You need to be worried about yourselves, what if your kid is ditching class and the other one is running away. Pay attention to your own lives because that is where you are there for a reason. Just get over it, they are human like everyone else.(I will continue on this topic in a later bog)

Another topic that I like to talk about is Michael Jackson and his family. He was a good man and now that he is dead his family is going through too much and the media won't leave them alone. My heart goes out to them, each and every one f them. To me they are the best family that is in the music business. I have seen the Jacksons: A Family Dynasty and they are the nicest people you will ever meet. I sure haven't met them, yet anyway, but I now this. How? I can't explain it but when you know something you just know. Please just let those children be happy and live a normal life, not only them but the rest of the family. His family and fans, we are all suffering but we will get through it.God bless that family.