Heartache

Sometimes I don't know what to do anymore with my feelings. I feel so bad right now that I want to cry but I can't, my body won't let me. I hate being alive right now more then ever. I though I felt somethoing for someone and it turns out that I don't but after a while I though about it and I thought I did but it turns out that he is married. I don't know if I should believe it but there is nothing that tells me I shouldn't. I guess all that i should do is thank God that I am still here and ask him to please give the strength to realize that this is one of the things that I can't change and to live with it. i thank God for having known him because it is part of my life. I hope that after today this heartache will pass and I will no longer feel this pain, because I know I am not the only one that has gone through this situation and if someone believes in me that I am strong enough to surpass anything then I better keep to that and lets see what happens. I just wish somebody would respond to my blog and tell me that I am not the only one that has gone through this, and that it might not be the last time I do. I must accept those that I cannot change and keep going because of the people that I do have in my life. No one is perfect except You and I need to understand that life isn't easy, not understand because I already do but accept it already. Please help my heart today because I can't deal with it alone. I give this worry to You because I cannot handle it on my own. Take it from me and do with it as You please!