Today I woke up and I  didn't want to,

I felt like going back to sleep to never wake,

I said I was sorry many times,

I try to change,

But its not enough.

I wish I was a good person,

I wish I wasn't bad,

I wish I could just be happy,

I wish I wasn't sad.

I'm sorry for the things I have done,

I'm sorry that I hurt you,

Yes,

You have been through hell and back,

But I have too.

I'm sorry for everything,

I know I can't take it back,

Nothing good that I do can.

I am embarrassed of myself,

I am embarrassed that everyone knows,

I am embarrassed of what I have done,

I am embarrassed of myself.

I wish I could change everything,

But I can't.

I wish I could take back you meeting me,

So you wouldn't have me on you back,

But I can't.

I wish I could make you proud of me,

But how can I if I'm not proud of myself?